I have been reflecting for the last few days on how much I have grown over the last decade. I have experienced my absolute lowest lows, and I have reached my highest highs, and more importantly, I have found the middle ground where I can experience both happiness and grief but can handle both. This is such a huge thing for me - this is not to say that I am not influenced by physiological factors, but that I am learning every day new ways to cope and handle and generally deal with who I am.
I have learned who I am, and that is an amazing thing; I think I have discovered a little bit of that strength that I used to admire in others. I know that I am "strong enough / to accept both weakness and strength in others," and that it's okay if I fall flat on my face once in a while - it's even okay if I sit there and cry for a while - because I am strong enough to get up and keep going. I've learned that it'll be okay. What an amazing thing! It'll all be okay eventually!
I look forward to continuing to grow and learn in the next year and the next decade and for the rest of my life. I look forward to sharing those lessons and struggles with you through this blog! I hope that God blesses each of you in the coming year, and works in your life the way that he has worked in mine.
I am resolved no longer to linger, charmed by the world's delight;
Things that are higher - things that are nobler - these have allured my sight!
I am resolved to go to the Savior, leaving my sin and strife;
He is the true One, He is the just One, He hath the words of life.
I am resolved to follow the Savior, faithful and true each day;
Heed what He sayeth, do what He willeth, He is the living Way.
I am resolved to enter the kingdom, leaving the paths of sin;
Friends may oppose me, foes may beset me, still will I enter in.
I am resolved, and who will go with me? Come, friends, without delay!
Taught by the Bible, led by the Spirit, we’ll walk the heav’nly way.
I will hasten to Him, hasten so glad and free;
Jesus - greatest, highest - I will come to Thee!